Expecting the Unexpected

It's the 8th of January 2017 as I am typing this. Exactly this day last week, I found out I was pregnant.

I don't wish to share this piece of news to the world just yet, but at the same time I worry I might forget the littlest details if I were to blog about this at a later date, so here I am pouring it all out and saving everything to be published in the future. 

Okay where was I... oh yes, I AM PREGNANT! 

How I Found Out

Last week on the 1st of January 2017, as I was blogging halfway, (this post!) I had the urge to pee. Not quite sure what was going through my head at that moment but instead of heading straight to the toilet, I picked up my ovulation stick from my cupboard, peed on a plastic cup and tried it out.

TMI but I've been tracking my fertile period few months before I got married. A close friend of mine had given me boxes of ovulation sticks & folic acid pills and advised me to "prepare"my body. I'm not much of an expert on this topic on ovulation but I did as I was told anyway. Based on my previous monthly results (and my pregnancy apps hehe) my fertile period is way back when I was in NZ.

So imagine my surprise when I saw this last week.

I don't know how these kits work but I do know that ovulation kits can also indicate pregnancy. The two lines are supposed to show up during your hot dates but if they still appear weeks after that then chances are you're preggie! Again, I'm no expert in this but that's what I was told lah.

I was still in disbelief, even though I've suspected it a long time before. Well tbh I was a lil obsessed with these sticks since I got married, my best friends can vouch for that cos I've been updating them with pictures of the results every few days. And I remember one night after we had dinner together, they were making dirty jokes as always and I told them I'm gonna pee on the stick again.

Of cos their replies were AGAIN?/SMACKS FOREHEAD/TAK ABES-ABES etc hahaha poor freaks. But anyways, the stick showed two very clear lines. A bit confused cos I had peed on the stick two and four days before and both were negative. Plus like I've mentioned my fertile period is over.

At that point of time, it didn't cross my mind the slightest bit that I might be pregnant.

This was 19 December 2016, exactly one month after my wedding. Unbeknownst to me, my own body just gave me a hint.

OK SO BACK TO MY FIRST STORY

The moment I saw that two lines on the 1st day of January, I told myself, this is it I must be pregnant! I know that I MUST get a real pregnancy kit to double and triple confirm it. So believe it or not, I actually went to the nearest mall, without even showering, just to get my hands on those kits. ha ha

I walked straight to Watsons and it didn't take long for me to decide which one out of the many brands of pregnancy kits available is going to be my choice. The cheapest one, of course! I grabbed the Watson brand, only $9 for two!

Thoughts in my head while walking back home: "OMG I just bought my first ever pregnancy kit!! How will I react if it's positive? Wait, when's the best time to test out this kit? *googles for answer* Next morning?!?! Ain't nobody got time for that ok! I'm gonna drink three or maybe ten glasses of water straight once I reach back and try it out right meow! OMG Thank God I got two kits at least if one doesn't work cos I try it now, I can try again the next morning. Am I seriously gonna be a mom?! "

Where was my danna when all this was happening? Busy with his wedding assignments and totally clueless about everything hehehe. Okay lah he has been suspecting that I'm pregnant too cos I've been leaving my ovulation sticks inside the toilet and every time he sees one with two faint lines, he will be asking me if it means I'm pregnant. To which I always reply, IDK!

There. I kid you not when I say I'm obsessed with them. The first from the top was the day I came back from NZ and forth from the top with two lines was the night I talked about earlier. Second from the bottom was on 1st January and last was two days ago. Kemarok, I know!

Ugh I hope I'm not confusing you guys sorry my story timeline is all over the place! So back to January the first, long story short, I recorded myself ala VLOG like that and tried out the kit. This showed up..

:'') OMG.

I'm pregnant. For real? I just learned how to cook and cut onions, which I am still struggling with, and now I'm going to handle a baby?! How on earth am I going to survive?! Is it too early to think of Csect cos I'm TERRIFIED of labour pain?? 

You know, when I was single I'd always imagine my reaction if I were to find out I was pregnant. I was a million percent sure I will break into both happy and scary tears cos God knows how fearful I am about labour. But at that point of time, surprisingly, I didn't. For a very long period of time, I just stood rooted to the ground, doing nothing but staring hard at the kit and eventually a few happy tears came out. The feeling was surreal.. I remember wishing for everything I have today and He answered em all.

Alhamdulillah..

How I break the news to Danna

That night, danna and I entered JB. God knows HOW HARD it was for me not to spill any beans. I did drop some hints like asking what does he prefer to be called, ayah or daddy or whatever. Then as we entered a shop to buy some CD ngaji, I picked a book with Islamic names for babies and he asked me.

"Are you hinting me something?"

Of cos I brushed it off, but deep inside I was screaming YESSSSSSSS YOU'RE GONNA BE A FATHER. Oh and we did reflexology that night and halfway through it suddenly occurred to me if this is even safe for me and baby(hehe). I blurted out that I'm not supposed to massage any part of my body and he asked, why not? "Oh, cos I'm having menses soon." Lame excuse but he believed me anyway..

The next morning..

I had a very hard time getting the other pregnancy kit out of the cupboard cos he was facing me from the bed, waiting for me to take my wudhu. I had to pretend I was looking for my comb, slip the kit inside my top and dash to the toilet. Thank God he didn't realise I was taking a longer time in the toilet! Stuffed the kit somewhere inside the toilet and we did our prayers together, with me pretending like nothing happened. I didn't even check the results!

Later that day, as we were getting ready to have our lunch outside, I thought that it was the right time to break the news to him. I placed my phone at the side of the bed to record his reaction, and the kit along with a note saying "Hello Daddy!" next to it on the bed. I hid inside the toilet as I hear him approaching.

Needless to say, seeing him so happy gives me a warm feeling deep inside. So glad I got everything recorded cos this is the kind of thing I will never ever get sick and tired of watching over and over again. A very good news to start off the new year, for the newly-wed us, in our new house.

Can't wait to see you in September lil bub :)

xoxo, N